Thread:Erin Nightshade/@comment-35400383-20140903231750/@comment-25119653-20140904225519

I do not know how your mind thinks, at least outside of causing mischief and such. I have an idea of such thoughts conjured within your head, but will not speak them. You have given up inside, you ahve tried apologizing so much without truly meaning it that when you did, they saw it as nothing but the same old sorry then do it again act. And now you live with that guilt and regret all those actions, at least you should.

If not, then you are much further gone and lost than I have imagined. You probably feel blind and lost because it is how you really are, and you don't want to believe it, but you need to, and you need to change, but changing aroudn these people, even if done in effort and successful, will not be seen as a change for the good.

At this point, no one here can see you changing and not being this way anymore, no one will believe it if you do either. You don't belong here anymore, and you know that as well. It is because you do not, that you feel lost and blind. You have messed up so bad, and did not live up to it quick or efficiently enough, and it has cost you nearly the ultimate price to pay, a consiquence of simply, leaving and not talking or associating with such people again.