Thread:Darkclaw1444/@comment-33057205-20180209144448/@comment-33057205-20180214144607

(HAPPY VALENTINES DAAAAAAY) If u look in pm on discord. reall all of it, but nvm about wt ive said about the dojo, its just my own worries getting to my head... i shouldnt force you to follow a path of pacifism like i have, i should allow you to just follow your own path, even if it isnt what id perfer, and you dont have to change because of my ideals either so im sorry about that... and dont question me for healing you even if you were offline and even if it was a training battle i still shed your blood and so i still wanted to heal you, sister. and i welcome you as my sister to the Windhearts just as you have always been my sister since nearly a decade ago. Ive been questioning myself, my ambitions, trying to get stronger even if it is for the protection of others ive wanted to learn more and more, even thinking of ideas for a weapon, like Kenshin's sakabato, reversed blade sword its a sword that cant cut, but still has the edge to the back(which kenshin used to defend himself against a friggin cannonball, wish i realized that was what had caused the ball to split in half.) but also has the weight it does, these are all reasons he didnt use a bokutou(wooden sword), ive been trying to think of ideas that would have all of these same aspects, but would be somethng i could use since naturally wouldnt my style call for a lighter weapon such as a bokutou, but id still want the back edge and to not cut with the other side, see what i mean? is it greedy of me to be thinking like this? ive contemplated about using a sakabato made of graphene wich is virtually indiscructable, but its extremely light you could put an entire block of it on a flower and the petals would hold, thing is, i'd need that back edge to it, also, the techniques i use, wouldnt they require the weight of a true sword? or maybe, i can make changes to my style of fighting to better fit these aspects. Father said he'd make me this sword, i dont even know if he's already started, so i think, in respects to him as well, id have to go with what i just said, a graphene sakabato with an edge to the back and ill work on techniques that best suit this weapon. ... wow i just did all my thinking through here XD IM A NERRRRRRRRRD! But, do you think the way i want to become stronger in the way i do, so that i can protect not only myself but others, and protect peace not just for the ones i love but for everyone, even for an apponent, is greedy of me? and i was trying to force you to follow my ways... *I look down, guilt washing over me in waves as my hair covers my eyes.* my deepest apologies, sister.