Thread:AyaBerryBlossom/@comment-24259552-20140508025118

I... have an announcement to make. I will be offline for a while idk when I will come back on. My feelings are all in a junk trunk and I cannot be better. Although, if I'm lucky, I might get better tomorrow. In the meanwhile I will be crying in rl thinking about how I have lost everybody. I have lost My mother, Moon, SnowHeart, and pretty much everybody in fr except the people in clans. But mostly, my dear Moonstar, who has been so kind as MoonPaw1 taking my Sarah Jewelfields character in her clan. I am heartbroken tonight (7:51 PM PST), so I will say no more than what is in these paragraphs.

I am an only child in rl and I have always wanted a sister. Until now, other than the heartbreaking moment as i was leaving my mother, I have never in my life felt this much pain. I feel as though even my dad is gone, he said that he would be right back he is not in the house right this moment, but I feel.... like the only 2 people I have... are God and Jesus. If you're not christian then deal with it. I'm really sad I was crying earlier, my nose running, and right now I just want to sleep. I'm sad for one because I feel alone, and two because the person I hate I am starting to like because of stupid puberty, and also.... I just.... in addition to feeling alone I feel as if I have no family.

I am speaking my heart out right now. If you don't believe a word I say, then sucks for you. Because it's not my job to see if you believe me or not. I don't want to judge any of you. The only thing I am doing is announcing why I am leaving for a while or possibly just a day or two. Also, understand that I don't want to leave either. I just need to fill my thoughts will deserts and unicorns right now o.o. I feel like everybody hates me... and I hate that feeling! Sometimes I will get mad... but after a little while I start to get sad. Even when people will cuss at me at school or something that will anger the average preteen, I will most likely get sad. And believe me, in those moments I try not to let even the tiniest single tear out of my eye, because then I will get humiliated at crying because of a person cussing at me and because of that embarrassment I will possibly cry more.

So as a summary (if you didn't read all of that above, because I know a lot of people will just skip paragraphs xD) I basically just said "I am leaving for a while, or possibly a day or two." So DUCES!!!

Feeling myself already,

~Ayanna / Alexis 