Thread:Darkblazing star/@comment-14209624-20140313092344/@comment-14209624-20140319072722

I have desided.... I WONT GIVE UP   I wont let the joy my clan brings others sometimes  I wont let it disappear even if all the people  I had  betrayed me my own brother ... my sons and my daughters my best friends  everyone I ever liked the all left me....  I only have jay and white and the few that can withstand the extreme hardness of being around my clan and me sadly we have lost our own will to leave... we are prisoners of our self well its time to chose every one can you  take the pain and suffering that comes with being in the clan  I had lost my self confidence and this is what happened  all because of me ... I have been trying to get my confidence back JUST to save my clan I may have lost my way but I am trying to find it again .. even if I am never the great leader I once was I can still try to be good enough right ? but I will do my best once I get my confidence back I am trying my hardest  but it wasn't enough so I guess any sane person would admit defeat  and move on with there life. .. heheheheh I  never said I was normal or sane. I am not smart enough to do that but hey sometimes the stupid things are turn up to be brave  I have no intent on being a hero I am only wanting to make a life for those that have been rejected by others and a haven for those that  have lost their own feeling or for those that are in need of a clan   I want to make everyone  happy even at the risk of my own life and my own sanity well any of it I have left  even my own humanity  I WONT GIVE UP  we still have feral don't forget.